What I’m about to say may sound weird, but there were several pivotal ‘light bulb’ moments that changed everything and rearranged my molecular structure. These events were so extraordinary, so uncanny — I have to pinch myself to believe they really happened. These events were nothing short of full-blown miracles. That’s the only way to describe them.
My awakening was of the spine-tingling, Twilight-Zonish variety. It’s hard to talk about this stuff because it appears to exist in the realm of the magical. But these things actually happened, and continue to happen. They give me concrete, tangible evidence of a loving, caring force in the universe. And now I’ve finally figured out the key to activating these gifts, which are really natural laws.
I've never publicly spoken about this to anyone outside of recovery circles, but I’ve often stopped to wonder ‘how did these seemingly miraculous events happen?’ There was one common element: surrender. When I gave up fighting, the outside picture totally changed. But what is the metaphysics of surrender? How did an ( invisible) inner change affect an outer result? In order to understand this, I had to study Quantum Physics, which inevitably led me to Einstein, who said, “No problem can be solved at the same level it was created on.” In other words, you can't fight fire with fire; you can't cure alcoholism with more alcohol or drugs — you have to go to a higher level — a spiritual or diplomatic solution. Or as George Carlin put it, “Fighting for peace is like screwing for virginity.”
But what does this overused word spiritual really mean?
I began to wonder, what is this key that unlocks the door and enables someone to ‘let go?’ What is the metaphysics of surrender? I had to know how this spiritual concept worked. I mean it’s not easy to just let go when you’re in the grip of pain, whether emotional or physical.
Worfeus writes: "Life is what we focus on. Period. Just as with the Double-Slit experiment where matter literally changes from wave to particle depending on whether or not someone is observing it, life it seems really ends up being exactly what we focus on. Focus on the good and positive, and you'll find that's what dominates your life."
Scientists
have discovered your brain activity produces waves that are measurable
according to your level of serenity or agitation. Enthusiasm and courage
actually change your brain waves. We radiate energy. Can these waves radiate
outward, affecting our outer circumstance? Are thoughts really things?
This means you can be attractive even if you’re not “good looking” because
if you radiate love you attract people. This is a joke I wrote for a movie.
I
have often felt like I’m on a two-lane highway going in opposite directions.
The theme of my life has been merging my lower nature with my higher nature
into one divine track or unity. When I could no longer cope, I surrendered
my will, my worries, and my fears.
And a miracle happened.
To
the mortal eye, these experiences are supernatural, spine tingling, like the
best magic. But as Wayne Dyer said, you have to believe it in order to see
it. You have to cooperate and conspire
with this force in order to conjure it. The creative force that sustains the
universe is interactive; it needs our participation. In fact, it can’t exist in
our lives without our consent, belief, faith or interaction. It needs playmates.
It needs to express itself through us. More and more I’m beginning to believe
what Elizabeth Gilbert said about her new epiphany: that we are not doing this
solo; there are no individual geniuses. We are all just transcribers of
creative consciousness – we are taking down God’s thoughts. Some are expressing
God through music, some through art, some through writing and poetry and
movies, some through comedy, some through tragedy, some through cooking,
planting and growing, some through design, building, teaching, science,
discoveries.
What
is the point of gaining the whole world if you lose your soul? After all the years of struggling to
make it — to find true love, to be rich, to have a happy family with a lagoon
pool and water-slides, to live my dreams in a hammock in Maui — I’ve come to
the conclusion that there is only one urgent need of mankind: to find God. But I’m
not talking about the kind of god you may be thinking of — the kind that
divides and judges. I thought I was too hip to believe in God and used to wonder if I find God will I still
have a good sex life? Not that
I have one now. I’m talking about unconditional love and an inner peace
that is unshakable.
I actually think we’re snowballing
toward excess for a reason: to show us that there is no material thing that can
make us really, permanently 'happy.' Matter is temporal.
All this chaos in the world is
happening to bring us closer to our spirit, our humanity. We have been
snowballing toward excess, materialism, style over substance, violence, porn,
for years. There is never enough blood, guts and sex and drugs to fill us up.
There is only one way to go: toward healing, the kingdom which is within us.
The more we focus on the good in others, even our enemies, the more the good
increases. This is a law of the universe, and it's the only real way to pray.
The word God
has become so political and dirty and misunderstood, I’m embarrassed to use it.
I feel guilty about being embarrassed, and I’m not even Catholic. Or Jewish. All I know is, no human power was able
to lift me out of my suicidal despair. The God I’m talking about has no
religion attached – no rules, dogma, yarmulkes, pointy bishops hats, long
velvet robes, crystals, coins, rosaries, bows toward Mecca or steps to the left.
No long, memorized prayers or deciphering of archaic doctrines. Only
redemption. I have had astonishing results from prayer. I know that prayer
actually changes things in the physical universe. But the kind of prayer I’m
talking about does not involve begging some anthropomorphic being who rules by
fear and punishment. It involves letting go of your fears and worries and truly
surrendering them to a loving higher power, whatever your own concept of this
is. Substituting your worries with Divine Love, the power of the universe. God
is love. It is really that simple. I had to get my intellect out of the way and
surrender my doubts first. Then I quietly screamed HELP!
If you ask my son’s Social Studies teacher what his religion is, he says, “Western Orthodox Baseball.” I think that’s a wise answer. Religion often gets in the way of God’s simple purpose: to love one another. Often it’s more about style — what tribe you belong to or what hat you wear — rather than substance. The Catch-22 is, by holding onto doubt and fear, we can’t experience the miracle because it takes our trust to activate it.
We have been conditioned to believe that the external world is more real than the internal world. Quantum Physics says just the opposite: what’s happening on the inside determines what’s happening on the outside. Our world is shaped by our thoughts. So your loving attention to something, literally alters the physical universe. This is scientific, but it is not easily understood.
Scientists have discovered that there is no solid matter in the universe. Not a single speck of solid matter anywhere. Even the tiniest atom has no solid core. At the quantum level, it is empty space.
Everything is energy.
Everything exists in waves of infinite possibility, until we look at it, observe it and lock it in or "particularize" it with our judgment, viewpoint or opinion. In my view, to "particularize" something is to make it into a particle locked in space and time. It appears to be solid once you have judged it and labeled it.
That is why it's important not to judge others or make negative assumptions about them — for you get whatever you choose to see — and you can therefore experience negative events that were never objectively there before you "locked them in" (made them into a particle, which appears to be solid) with your weighted observation or judgment.
The observer affects the object (wave) making it collapse into a particle at a certain moment in time.
I have written a White Paper which proves that our loving attention to an object actually changes the object in the physical universe.
Energy consists of sub-atomic particles that in turn make up atoms and finally matter. This energy exists as waves spread out over space and time. They have discovered that down to the tiniest atom, there is only empty space. There is no solid matter. Everything is energy. Everything exists in waves of infinite possibility. Only when we focus our attention on an object does that object become a particle. We "particularize" an object by our attention to it.
So thoughts really are things. And 85% of all disease is caused by stress -- which means worry, fear or misplaced thoughts that become ingrained habits of negativity. There is now scientific proof that loving thoughts actually create a thicker brain cortex. Monks who meditate on love regularly have no disease.
Dr. Christine Northrup says "Hope is a biochemical state in the body that promotes healing."
Laughter heals. And we know that love heals everything. Love is the actual definition of God. (If only fundamentalist Christians understood this. But they seem to omit Christ's teachings form their form of Christianity. Very bizarre.
Love is an interactive force. The creative force of love that created all this beauty in the world — from peacocks to butterflies to chocolate to puppies to humans — needs playmates to interact with, and to show off for. I call it 'god' but you can call it love or life or Buddha. This force needs our cooperation and our BELIEF belief in order to show off for us. This "showing off" is manifests are miracles in our lives.
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| Morongo Casino The Cooking Show |
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| A Peacock I met at San Diego Zoo |
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| Me, in Barbados with some surfers |
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| My sister Kathryn and me at Jeff Franklin's manse |
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| A Swallowtail in my front yard. A Butterfly I met yesterday |
To experience magic and miracles try to adopt a childlike sense of wonder at all the beauty around you. Seek it and you'll find it. Really look for beauty. Look for the good in other people. Whatever you focus on magnifies. When you decide to trust others, they become trustworthy. When you start to appreciate this beautiful universe, it will show off for you. Act as if you believe in a power greater than yourself -- participate, conspire, and cooperate with the LOVE that surrounds all living things.
By loving ourselves, we can then give love to others, and forgive them when they are not "perfect." By this loving, selfless action, we create harmony and peace on earth.
