Saturday, July 20, 2013


What I’m about to say may sound weird, but there were several pivotal ‘light bulb’ moments that changed everything and rearranged my molecular structure. These events were so extraordinary, so uncanny — I have to pinch myself to believe they really happened. These events were nothing short of full-blown miracles. That’s the only way to describe them.

My awakening was of the spine-tingling, Twilight-Zonish variety. It’s hard to talk about this stuff because it appears to exist in the realm of the magical.  But these things actually happened, and continue to happen. They give me concrete, tangible evidence of a loving, caring force in the universe. And now I’ve finally figured out the key to activating these gifts, which are really natural laws.       

I've never publicly spoken about this to anyone outside of recovery circles, but I’ve often stopped to wonder ‘how did these seemingly miraculous events happen?’ There was one common element: surrender. When I gave up fighting, the outside picture totally changed. But what is the metaphysics of surrender?  How did an ( invisible) inner change affect an outer result? In order to understand this, I had to study Quantum Physics, which inevitably led me to Einstein, who said, “No problem can be solved at the same level it was created on.”  In other words, you can't fight fire with fire; you can't cure alcoholism with more alcohol or drugs — you have to go to a higher level — a spiritual or diplomatic solution. Or as George Carlin put it, “Fighting for peace is like screwing for virginity.”
But what does this overused word spiritual really mean? 
I began to wonder, what is this key that unlocks the door and enables someone to ‘let go?’ What is the metaphysics of surrender? I had to know how this spiritual concept worked.  I mean it’s not easy to just let go when you’re in the grip of pain, whether emotional or physical.

To experience magic and miracles you have to adopt a childlike sense of wonder at all the beauty around you. Seek it and you'll find it. Really look for beauty. Look for the good in other people. Whatever you focus on magnifies. When you decide to trust others, they become trustworthy. When you start to appreciate this beautiful universe, it will show off for you.  Act as if you believe in a power greater than yourself -- participate, conspire, and cooperate with the LOVE that surrounds all living things. 
Worfeus writes: "Life is what we focus on. Period. Just as with the Double-Slit experiment where matter literally changes from wave to particle depending on whether or not someone is observing it, life it seems really ends up being exactly what we focus on. Focus on the good and positive, and you'll find that's what dominates your life."

Scientists have discovered your brain activity produces waves that are measurable according to your level of serenity or agitation. Enthusiasm and courage actually change your brain waves. We radiate energy. Can these waves radiate outward, affecting our outer circumstance? Are thoughts really things? 
This means you can be attractive even if you’re not “good looking” because if you radiate love you attract people. This is a joke I wrote for a movie. 
I have often felt like I’m on a two-lane highway going in opposite directions. The theme of my life has been merging my lower nature with my higher nature into one divine track or unity. When I could no longer cope, I surrendered my will, my worries, and my fears.  And a miracle happened. 

To the mortal eye, these experiences are supernatural, spine tingling, like the best magic. But as Wayne Dyer said, you have to believe it in order to see it. You have to cooperate and conspire with this force in order to conjure it. The creative force that sustains the universe is interactive; it needs our participation. In fact, it can’t exist in our lives without our consent, belief, faith or interaction. It needs playmates. It needs to express itself through us. More and more I’m beginning to believe what Elizabeth Gilbert said about her new epiphany: that we are not doing this solo; there are no individual geniuses. We are all just transcribers of creative consciousness – we are taking down God’s thoughts. Some are expressing God through music, some through art, some through writing and poetry and movies, some through comedy, some through tragedy, some through cooking, planting and growing, some through design, building, teaching, science, discoveries. 
What is the point of gaining the whole world if you lose your soul?  After all the years of struggling to make it — to find true love, to be rich, to have a happy family with a lagoon pool and water-slides, to live my dreams in a hammock in Maui — I’ve come to the conclusion that there is only one urgent need of mankind: to find God. But I’m not talking about the kind of god you may be thinking of — the kind that divides and judges. I thought I was too hip to believe in God and used to wonder if I find God will I still have a good sex life? Not that I have one now. I’m talking about unconditional love and an inner peace that is unshakable. 

I actually think we’re snowballing toward excess for a reason: to show us that there is no material thing that can make us really, permanently 'happy.' Matter is temporal. 

All this chaos in the world is happening to bring us closer to our spirit, our humanity. We have been snowballing toward excess, materialism, style over substance, violence, porn, for years. There is never enough blood, guts and sex and drugs to fill us up. There is only one way to go: toward healing, the kingdom which is within us. The more we focus on the good in others, even our enemies, the more the good increases. This is a law of the universe, and it's the only real way to pray.
The word God has become so political and dirty and misunderstood, I’m embarrassed to use it. I feel guilty about being embarrassed, and I’m not even Catholic. Or Jewish. All I know is, no human power was able to lift me out of my suicidal despair. The God I’m talking about has no religion attached – no rules, dogma, yarmulkes, pointy bishops hats, long velvet robes, crystals, coins, rosaries, bows toward Mecca or steps to the left. No long, memorized prayers or deciphering of archaic doctrines. Only redemption. I have had astonishing results from prayer. I know that prayer actually changes things in the physical universe. But the kind of prayer I’m talking about does not involve begging some anthropomorphic being who rules by fear and punishment. It involves letting go of your fears and worries and truly surrendering them to a loving higher power, whatever your own concept of this is. Substituting your worries with Divine Love, the power of the universe. God is love. It is really that simple. I had to get my intellect out of the way and surrender my doubts first. Then I quietly screamed HELP!
If you ask my son’s Social Studies teacher what his religion is, he says, “Western Orthodox Baseball.” I think that’s a wise answer. Religion often gets in the way of God’s simple purpose: to love one another. Often it’s more about style — what tribe you belong to or what hat you wear — rather than substance. The Catch-22 is, by holding onto doubt and fear, we can’t experience the miracle because it takes our trust to activate it. 

We have been conditioned to believe that the external world is more real than the internal world. Quantum Physics says just the opposite: what’s happening on the inside determines what’s happening on the outside. Our world is shaped by our thoughts. So your loving attention to something, literally alters the physical universe. This is scientific, but it is not easily understood.

Scientists have discovered that there is no solid matter in the universe. Not a single speck of solid matter anywhere. Even the tiniest atom has no solid core. At the quantum level, it is empty space. 

Everything is energy. 

Everything exists in waves of infinite possibility, until we look at it, observe it and lock it in or "particularize" it with our judgment, viewpoint or opinion.  In my view, to "particularize" something is to make it into a particle locked in space and time. It appears to be solid once you have judged it and labeled it. 

That is why it's important not to judge others or make negative assumptions about them — for you get whatever you choose to see — and you can therefore experience negative events that were never objectively there before you "locked them in" (made them into a particle, which appears to be solid) with your weighted observation or judgment.  

The observer affects the object (wave) making it collapse into a particle at a certain moment in time. 

I have written a White Paper which proves that our loving attention to an object actually changes the object in the physical universe.

Energy consists of sub-atomic particles that in turn make up atoms and finally matter. This energy exists as waves spread out over space and time. They have discovered that down to the tiniest atom, there is only empty space. There is no solid matter. Everything is energy. Everything exists in waves of infinite possibility. Only when we focus our attention on an object does that object become a particle. We "particularize" an object by our attention to it.

So thoughts really are things. And 85% of all disease is caused by stress -- which means worry, fear or misplaced thoughts that become ingrained habits of negativity. There is now scientific proof that loving thoughts actually create a thicker brain cortex. Monks who meditate on love regularly have no disease.

Dr. Christine Northrup says "Hope is a biochemical state in the body that promotes healing."

Laughter heals. And we know that love heals everything. Love is the actual definition of God. (If only fundamentalist Christians understood this. But they seem to omit Christ's teachings form their form of Christianity. Very bizarre.

Love is an interactive force. The creative force of love that created all this beauty in the world — from peacocks to butterflies to chocolate to puppies to humans — needs playmates to interact with, and to show off for.   I call it 'god' but you can call it love or life or Buddha. This force  needs our cooperation and our BELIEF belief in order to show off for us. This "showing off" is manifests are miracles in our lives.  

Morongo Casino The Cooking Show

A Peacock I met at San Diego Zoo

Me, in Barbados with some surfers 

My sister Kathryn and me at Jeff Franklin's manse

A Swallowtail in my front yard. A Butterfly I met yesterday

To experience magic and miracles try to adopt a childlike sense of wonder at all the beauty around you. Seek it and you'll find it. Really look for beauty. Look for the good in other people. Whatever you focus on magnifies. When you decide to trust others, they become trustworthy. When you start to appreciate this beautiful universe, it will show off for you.  Act as if you believe in a power greater than yourself -- participate, conspire, and cooperate with the LOVE that surrounds all living things. 

By loving ourselves, we can then give love to others, and forgive them when they are not "perfect."  By this loving, selfless action, we create harmony and peace on earth. 


  1. a lovely creed to go by lydia my belle..."lydia the tattooed lady!"
    -monk johanan (joannis)

  2. Its amazing the losers in this world, who's focus like poor rusty here is always to incite hate, spite, nasty, petty bile and hurt.

    To be such a low, dark, disturbed loser that your only purpose, your only action is to try to spread your misery, to others.

    Voltron, Rusty, Johnny, all the same. Sad little men, with nothing of worth to offer anyone, including themselves.

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    1. Where ever shall I go, what ever shall I do?

  4. Oh well, I guess I'll learn to live with it...

  5. You three should really stop talking to yourself.

  6. And who gives a crap what you live with, dolt-tron?

  7. must have me confused with one of your sock puppet pop-up-weasels,

    :| know,..the only ones who give a rats ass about what you think.

  8. What's that blog of yours called again? You know, the one you started to hear yourself talk?...oh yea...the "Ruffian" blog, lol.

    You're your most avid reader.

  9.'re your only reader.

  10. Check out our LIVE CRAZY SHOW from last night on the new blog thread .... Luv xoxo

  11. Loved this article even though the science was a bit over my head at times. Are there really miracles? For most of my life I would have said "No'. All that changed less than two years ago. I suffered a head injury in 2000 which left me with a chemical imbalance. Terrible depression and headaches, were my life for years. The only thing that kept me going was the love of my life Judi. So when Judi told me she had Cancer my life hit rock bottom. For the first time in forty years I got on my knees and prayed. I prayed for God to do with me as he wished... he could take me or make me suffer, as long as Judi survived and got better. Well she did survive the radiation and chemo. She got better and better and I got worse. It was now time to keep my end of the bargain. I held her that last time knowing it WOULD be the last and left for the desert. I set up camp in the middle of nowhere and prepared myself for my final journey. There's a peacefulness knowing the end is near. It.s actually a pleasant feeling knowing you'll never again have to deal with problems and worries. I starved myself to the point of falling into a diabetic coma (I discovered I was diabetic almost a year earlier). I remember the night my blood sugar was two points away from death, I was disoriented and sick and figured it was my last night. But a funny thing happened in the middle of the night. I had a dream of my father (he had passed away about five years earlier). He told me to find a doorway and walk through. I woke up in the morning and I had never felt better in my life. My depression was gone, after twelve years of living in a dark bottomless hole I felt as though my soul had been cleansed. I was totally clear headed and so much energy that I had to get up and walk. Oh yeah, that morning was Dec. 25, Christmas Day. The next two weeks we're the greatest of my life. I had forgotten what it was like to feel joy. I ate five sandwiches that day, my stomach ached a bit but I felt good. I never did look for the doorway cause I figured it was a dream and I've never believed in dreams and such.
    Jan. 9th, while hiking in the desert I was shot in .the chest. Rednecks driving in the desert were shooting out of their truck window. I was lying on the ground bleeding from my chest when I realized this is it, my end of the bargain was due. But why save me from death just two weeks earlier to have my die now. There I was trapped in the desert alone and dying. I sat beneath a large tree and looked at the gorgeous view and waited to die. I have told only four friends this story cause it's so crazy what happened next that I know people won't believe me, but I swear I heard a voice that said "Get up Daniel". What happened next is so horrible I have trouble talking or even thinking about it. I went to bed that night and when I woke up there was a light coming in through the opening of the cave? When I stepped through the opening I saw mountains all around. I was high on a mountain yet felt no cold. What I DID feel was love, love just surrounded me. It was so peaceful, It felt like pure joy. When you are on the other side all of life's questions are answered, the meaning of life, why are we here, what does it all mean. But you can bring all that information back with you because that's why we're here, to discover life's mysteries in our lifetime. I'm leaving out details here cause I have trouble believing them myself. But when I woke up, almost 48 hours had passed. I convinced myself that it was a dream. I kept thinking that until last Sept. 10, 2012 when Judi was shot and killed by her ex husband. I have felt guilty ever since because I backed out on my deal with God. I was suppose to die so Judi could go on living. I had two chances and I didn't fulfil my end of the bargain. I am still depression free even though I miss Judi every day. I am not afraid of death because it's beautiful on the other side. Thank you and maybe this will help someone to not be scared of the unknown.

  12. The brain is remarkably complex Dan.................its truly astounding what illusions it can construct/generate!!

    I personally like the woman who was on the Howard Stern show recently; she died at the hospital and was revived by doctors.While dead,she claims to have met our narcissistic God...............He told her to write a book and leave out certain parts of their meeting...........LOL!!

    1. Thanks Johnnymoomoo for responding. I was never a believer in miracles or anything supernatural. I scoffed at people who claim to have had strange experiences. Have you done much studying of NDE (Near Death Experiences)? Do you think that everything we now know about death is all that will ever be known? The universe is remarkably complex also and the things we now know about the universe, hundreds of years ago would have been thought of as a fantasy or maybe an illusion.

    2. Try reading "Journeys out of the body" by Robert Monroe.
      Excellent book on the subject.

      Anything by Edgar Cayce is good too.

    3. Ahhhhhhhhhh.......yes,the ever popular bright light!I believe it is associated with the right part of the brain. Of course many people believe that this magnificent light, and the accompanying dreams thereafter,is a sign from our confused and imperfect God!

  13. "Here comes Worfy Boo Hoo"


    : D

  14. Thank you Johnny Doo Doo.

  15. I'm not sure "Thank You" constitutes a question there penislips.....but then again you never were much in the way of articulation.